Psychic Sanity

Psychic Sanity

Psychic Sanity


If I was on the edge of chaos, was it really sanity? How close can one go to the mind's last stand and still return? Does it help to be psychic or does that make it worse? I was there. I'm psychic and I think it saved me. I would have to admit, you would not want to be newly psychic and do such a thing, because how would you know? I'm talking, seasoned intuitive here. I know my guiding spirits and teachers and I know when something is not right.

I wouldn't recommend going beyond a normal
tower falling catastrophe though. It was not my plan, it is just a spiritual insurance if you ever have to suffer an edge like that. So, if you have strong gut feelings: get them tuned; get them stronger. You never know just how much you may need them one day and I'm not talk just the don't go down that alley beauty of it.

I was on that edge when I was quite young. I was still connected to all that I was born with, enough, before the
adults cut my flowers. Then I rebuilt it and healed a huge, dark illness, thus having to restore my psychic everything. That was where I found my mind too close three more times. It is because of the level I had to heal my mind from much abuse and scars. When one heals the mind, it can cause madness as it finds what it is supposed to be again. Unlike a leg that doesn't work yet and you build the muscles and try again, then it almost does and you collapse to just use the rest of your body instead; the mind, can't quite go through that when you are trying to rehabilitate it. There is a chance it won't come back.

If you are like me, it is a chance worth taking, because wounds needed mending. For me though, even the
counting on my friends that were always there to tell me the light was red. Those friends (can be called spirit guides), they can really help to meditate on and listen deeply to, before each step of breaking and restarting my mind.

Does it even matter the healing steps, Wester, Eastern, that got me there? I think not, because we all have a destined healing path. What guides you is literally your guides. They are there. Listen in your quiet place. You really know how to heal, how to recover. Your body alone is telling you. It all speaks. Find them and train yourself to keep finding them, then trust yourself.

How many of us ever had trusted ourselves? So many people we have come across, to get us not to, because they didn't, and more likely just wanted an
in to control you. Inside you are the answers to your own trust. Some are raised to know this and others have to take a long path to know. Either way, it is not trivial. It is a strength to build, a needed strength to save your life. So many think it is just a fancy, some little fuzzy wonder to play with. It is the source of what your soul speaks. It is why we are all here, to walk a path our soul wanted to.

Your heart will tell you. Open it, speak with it and you will get there. Listen to that small voice and one day, it will speak loud enough to be the
soul-mate and tell you, “I won't let you fall. Let me heal you too.”

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Back to Nature, A Place for Magic

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Back to Nature, A Place for Magic

To self-practition nature is an important move to loving yourself. Remembering the child you once were, and the magic that was real in the games you played, is an important first step. Find a corner, a closet, a room, to gather what you collect that the opening inside you will bring. You started into this world with only your mind, not communicating with anything but your soul and the universe, it just came from. This is where life and love still exists. You can share, eventually, once you know how to find the secrets and keep them. You will only share enough to find like-minded. Then, you will both respect that you are going a deep path together. A knowing silence will be an important part of such a relationship.

Gather favorite collections in drawers and shelves around your house. You already have these supplies because you were always a part of your childhood magic, it never left. There is no right or wrong way, nor is there a list of what you need in this. You'll learn what you want to add as you gain this space inside you to hold. The place you started, sit near it for a time regularly. It is best right after a long walk or a bath, something that brought you back to the earth. It could just be five minutes at first and evolve into hours at times. It will make your other life more fulfilling and you will find a strength no one can reach.

Make the storage fun in your little area. The more it feels like it holds secrets, the better. It gathers energy and nature spirits in this. Bring material you like to stare at and touch, velvets, lace, silks, fringe. These help keep those spirits on the lighter side for you. The dark gets confused and entangled in such things. Lay down and stare at your ceiling there. Do you want to decorate that too? Does it take you into dreamy trances? Hang some wind chimes or a big pendant you can spin and catch the light. Pin some strings across for flowers to dry on. Clip other herbs there if you wish. It is all about sitting with that little girl/boy that would do such things once. Do you remember sitting in your room or in your yard, and thinking for a while, then gather things to you? You would collect and talk to the characters you made for this game.

Was there an old dress or shirt you never wore because it meant something but never went with anything or didn't fit? You just couldn't help getting it or keeping it. See if it is to be drapery or for under containers. It could also become pouches to hand stitch or little squares to make sashes. You will know when you bring it to your spot to sit with it. It was speaking to you all this time. This is a time that will remind you of the other little things you've kept and didn't know why. Go gather these now. After a few hours or days of bringing and thinking here, you will want to purchase some more to finish these feelings. You will find this kind of shopping different, yet familiar, like when you followed your parents around in stores thinking 'if I had that.' I will go into this kind of shopping in another article, this is enough of the thinking you need for now.

If you have the energy, take a hike on your favorite path. Bring a bag, or pack, and gather feathers, nuts, sticks, as it is presented to you. You will know it is yours. It will ask you to pick it up like it did when you would trail behind your Mother or Father into nature. They wanted to go home with you once, and they will want to go home with you again. It evolves, your place you made. It is bringing you back to the awareness in every moment again. You will have sometimes only one thing to bring to it, but every one thing says thank you for bringing me your message and thank you for listening in my space. Thank you gives them energy to keep playing with you. Have fun playing with your magic of nature.

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Self Portraits Heal

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Self Portraits Heal

It doesn't matter if you are an artist, poet, writer, or none of these. You could have as much creativity as a stagnant puddle of mud. Self-portraits heal. They help you see yourself. They can help you see how the world effects you. I recommend one a week or a month. No one has to see. It can sit there in your drawer, your trash can, or your fireplace. I do a poem and a portrait a week in my weekly blog, but I find time to do little ones here and there, throughout the week too.

Draw it with your weak hand, make a stick man out of clay; it doesn't matter; what it says does. Did you make one of your arms too long? Did you have boobs, are they different then how everyone else sees them? Did you leave the feet off of the page? Yes, there are some psychological drawing books explaining children's drawings. It can be fun to look them up, but not necessary for what I am talking about. I think it is just being aware of what you drew and what you didn't draw and getting it out of your mind, freeing you.

I have a drawing I did when I was the sickest I had ever gotten. That drawing I still have. It shows the sick too, but what is important is, that was the beginning of me getting better. I found out what I was not seeing in myself and it was all over me. I found my sadness of being sick for so long. I found everything and began my journey back to health.

My recent pictures seem to be just of a focused part of me. Maybe because I've been working so hard at healing for two years straight that it is now over focused. It is a good thing though. I'm finding all the little different spots that need my attention. From a broken cage to the way my ribs under my breasts couldn't get drawn right from behind the held up knees, they focused correctly too. I've had buried emotions in my face that I've gotten out and my liver had been overtaxed. A piece of the healing began right on the paper because that image was no longer hidden in my mind. My point of view has to constantly change to take another one out and draw it.

I think, if you ever could show a friend, or more, it goes to another stage. It comforts the viewer. It gives you permission to know that is no longer who you are, even if it was an hour ago. It gives the viewer permission to admit their own flaws so that they too can get rid of them or even better, discover that they are not flaws because everyone has them. Maybe they are a good thing because look there on the picture of my friend, it is beautiful, just like my friend.

Of course, cartooning them are the best. You give yourself permission to laugh at yourself and everyone around you lightens up because they laugh at what they see in themselves too. Do you monster up your cartoon? That is an adorable freight to put a bewildering mask on. Perhaps that one would show the most of all, the hidden we all want to know is okay to be seen. It puts a light on our monster in the closet.

So take out your yellow notepad if that is all you have and your ball point pen, doodle your meeting away with a picture of you. It will be quite refreshing to remember the warrior in your head in the middle of class, once a long time ago, conquering the lessons of the day.

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The Magic of Idle

The Magic Of Idol

The Magic of Idle


There is a time you must do nothing. As simple as it is, it is not an easy thing to do for most. Some grew up with shame, that doing nothing meant wasting time. Yet, idle time is the main ingredient to genius. If you do not give this time to yourself, your work is limited. It is more than daydreaming, and at times, it could even be a lot less than that. Though it can lead to little spurts of such daydreaming, it is more space than that. So, when was the last time, you went and got a tea, or glass of water and sat by a window, or in a bare room, or out on your porch and stared into the air until you forgot you were there?

I suppose you are the type that gets restless and paces if boredom gets too close. Maybe you will not be frustrated as rumored from childhood. Even if your fear and your memory of what sitting brings comes seeping in, relax, it is not boring, it is contentment. You know, contentment, the calm side of joy, of bliss. Yet, our memories bring shame in such
wasting of time. You must now recognize that this is relevant time. If you want to bring storms to your work, you must do nothing for a bit. It is fuel. If you never did a project on this fuel, give it a day. Let yourself have a day off.

You can plan your nothing a bit, but mostly don't. You could get dressed and have a morning routine still (don't sometimes as well) and then stop everything. You could also take long slow walks, to start allowing yourself an almost nothing at first. Then, when you are ready, sit on a rock and stare into nature. You could also sit in bed with tea or at the table with a notebook and a ball point pen, making curls and swirls while twisting your hair. These are all the things many have been taught, to stop. If you want to create something on a level you never thought possible, this is how you do it. Don’t stop, start. Keep it up.

One thing such idle practice will also do, is keep away illness. Disease is just dis-ease, as they say, and if you plan your ease, it won't be forced upon you. At first, you may find, yourself doing a lot of it, but you are starving for it. Give that
vacation to your off time for now. Then when you are ready, let it fill your life, it may be one to three hours a day; or, a half hour a day and on the weekend make it five hours a day. It could terrify you to think of so much time gone when you look over your week and plan this, but when you go back to your work, you will get more time out of that. You will have instant ideas. In these moments scheduled or otherwise, it is good to have paper and pen around to make lists of all the ideas you will be having.

There is also another wonderful experience to this. During your idle time, you will find, time slows down and you get a lot out of your nothing, twice as much at the least. You will gain the knowledge of letting go. This is very good to cleanse your stress off. This can be a type of meditation. An unguided meditation to bring you to your thoughts where the universe puts into you. It will feel like your own, and our universe does not mind you claiming it. We are vessels, but there is no ego in this. You will feel like you've been reading ten books a week more than usual, with the amount of knowledge you will start bringing to your work. You will find a little more wisdom in your confidence.

So, what kind of nothing will you do today. Make sure you get plenty in before bed. Remember, wasting time is only when you are avoiding doing anything. This is a purposeful nothing you have set aside time for. Begin to find your magic in this idle you make. Your projects will be your thank you.

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My Dr. Journal

Dr. Journal

My Dr. Journal


People have asked me how I self-advocate so well. I would have to say the years of journaling have been a big influence. For more on how to do it, you can look up Julia Cameron's 'Morning Pages' on any search engine. This article will focus on the why and the benefits beyond creating and getting rid of the critic. To go into a regular place, like a journal, is as beneficial or even more beneficial than a daily psychiatrist.

I have found that I've learned to properly express my grievances without starting arguments; bringing out things on my mind way before they bother me enough to feel burdened or hurt. Then, I'll weigh it over, as the pages will do. By the end of my entrance for the day, I'll feel I must act if such an act comes up. In other words, I'll advocate for myself. It is a wonderful experience to watch grow in yourself. The pages help you notice this strength gain its life in you, with each day's little things regularly expressed.

This is why Julia's suggested daily three pages is a definite recommendation. The subtle experiences are necessary for personal growth as large as you want to accomplish. The small steps are important to not make a wave around you or inside you. Then suddenly those steps add up, as the saying goes, to miles.

Another pleasant advantage to this practice is, people will begin to not bother you. You figure out their methods and secrets, or accidents, to getting under your skin. Then you can make those buttons on yourself disappear. Such people will begin to find you quite slippery and look for easier prey. Your life will start making room for better people with better treatment habits. As you discuss in your papers who you meet, you will notice them more than you thought . You will bring the minute to the front of your brain. You will know when someone is a better standard on a more timely basis, and save a lot of pain. You will also know when to keep going and look for different.

The best thing about this is on a day you've had quite a strain and you do some extra pages. If you wonder if you are losing your mind, there on the pages will reveal your real battle. You can breathe easier after a couple of sentences, that you are talking to someone who knows you and they think you will turn out alright. They'll give you proof. We all have those pushing, chaotic moments. They often show up, the harder you propel yourself in your goals, going outside of your comfort zone as much as possible. This will be the one comfort zone you can afford to keep. It will tell you all about where to go next, not holding back. Avoiding doing your journal, during a hard day, may. Remember those questions that you have, will get answered in there, if you write fast enough. You write it so fast that you are through with the sentence before you even knew what you were going to say. (What happens is sometimes we already knew, sometimes it is our higher self, and sometimes our guiding spirits.) It will seem like magic, or it just may be.

The spiritual aspect of this is an advantage. It is one of the easiest ways to soul search out there, other than staring off into space for hours. Yes, meditation will always have its place, no matter the way you do it, and this is one more way. Seeing things from multiple angles really moves us through our problems and highlights what is working.

So, if you want to find yourself getting your act together, and be your own guru. Get out your notebooks or special pads and write every single thought that comes up with no worries of sentence structure or change of topic or if you ever make a paragraph, then go as fast as you can until three pages are done. Make sure you visit your Dr. Journal daily and you will have less need for other kinds of doctors. When you do need a doctor, your pages will tell you too. Get started and find the love of your life, you.

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