Dec 2015

A Door In As He Hardened the Key

a door in as he hardened the key
A Door In As He Hardened the Key

The root of him with the scale of
Height along side her length
To call for rooted as they slept
Touching in every sense with soft
With forever as they dreamed and
For a place he had never been
In the mind of a writer she
Would bend to all of him
Only here in their bodies' call
But never to be anything other
Than the growing in her she remains
Inside her boundaries he had
Earned to touch her there in
Chakras and soul and peel himself
Into the man that could stay there
Glowing ceiling of the warm water
How many fish swam with her name
As his tail curled around her to be
Horse of deep water to birth
Everything she touched into being
That had his name with hers
That became a being of creation
That held itself inside deep folds
Of her thoughts and warmed
With the blanket of her womb
He had the place built for them
To let her rooms heal while he cared
And his tail stroked her legs
Where his legs once walked along

There, is where she mourned the death
Of the crazy that walked as
Zombie masks killing her children
There, was where he found his secret
Tourcher to heal even his hidden heart
Inside the labyrinth of hearts
He built inside the cavity their darkness
Vortexed as darkhole until she
Touched every one with words
Because he had their own crazy
Inside his very skin to become
And killing them there, back to his
Zombies as a witness never seeing
Who he ever was but a puppet
As she taught him to cut his strings
He held her closer still, filling her
With his root and seeds, dreaming
Thoughts for his waking walks
To remember his tail when he rose
Upright on a path she already left
Footprints for him to find her
Heart inside a heart of her own
Maze down under her suns
As his way was lit beyond curtain
Into the darkness he thought would be
Darker than anything to even feel
Had everywhere her suns would hide
Growing more light than his eyes
As his sight focused to sharp lines of curves

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My Give-up Give-in Loop of New Wings

My give-ip give-in loop of new wings

My Give-up Give-in Loop Of New Wings

I can't dream of kissing you
Because I think that vision's broken
As I mend my horizon's mountains
Traces of you have walked the shadows
I no longer fancy the birth of things
Like the desire I've carried in my loins
Since I was a girl becoming me
Is my identity only this that is numb
As justifying parent decides I'm a stage
And all along I've been woman
Accept a you, held the babies
Before they ever where, instead of
Me dying inside again and again
As we've never started, too much
All these almosts hanging around me
As if they had a life to fruition
Maybe because we've met like the rest
Of seven, making love with kisses
For a future we still cannot touch
Because you’re a man out there
I am in pleasure and heaven of the warmth
Of sealed windows to hold our breath
Who was she/is she that is all of them
That with less suffering has already held
You as many times in her arms
Because they already get what we've been
Weaving into the suffering to release
What were you if not but another
Test as to whether I own my strings

Still in the middle of “you never came”
Learning how to think of beautiful
Instead of things that hurt my existence
Instead of the wish I once made
This lovely life I am and have, can be
Whether you ever will or never will
I'll only watch what is and the done
As I've become real sight for my heart
Even in moments of “I would never think of”
Because of the unique of where
I stumble into life and in anyway
I am open to the strangest of pleasure
To bring me what I need in mind
I could walk in smooth love and warmth
To reach such irregular that I need
I am unique enough to gain in advantage
Whether in kisses or living in a giant
As I've already begun to fly in my coma
I thought I woke and awoke to
Awaken, yet I've found sleep
Is still pulled from my bones
I thought you were me in all pulling
To bring my madness into genius
But it would seem unsung love
Serenaded from my balcony is
My open doors still calling you
Even in waves of isolated sadness
I get over to remember to move

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If He Lived, Did He Have the Same Name

If he lived did he have the same name

If He Lived, Did He Have the Same Name

I remember the death of you
As the other me's do not
It was before I could be
More than a friend sharing words
Because of murder still disguised
After all these years, as your own hand
Perhaps the unshaven and eyeliner
Wile you sang of cracking heartbreak
Of a raising full of pain in your place
As what was defined as male
And you found a world of both kisses
As my dreams leaked of other places
Where you lived long with songs for me
You told the world of my stories
Giving me the lines I needed for home
How many times you lived without her
Because it was still her hand that killed
This place is the only one with holes
Of whether it was your words with gun
Far off across another existence
Where she never crossed your sight
Was where you struggled to live longer
And still there with all your songs
Healing like a broken fish can
Of a world that did not swim deep
You gave the translations of feeling
Maybe even remember your arms
Around the woman for her brains
Until her legs would claim you

How many were like you in my other
Not bruised like I could've been place
Because I knew how to speak and hold
My own stages on my towers
What would it've been like
To not live in the nay-sayers’ caves with bars
If flooding basement I had to crawl
Was never a had-to do these steps to live
Knee-high in the rotting, wet pile of
Blankets thrown over my ways
That other place where I spent two years
Inside your heart and arms
Did you show me my voice mattered
As my body was your wish to touch
Did my back arch your way
Because your feelings were soft for me
I think your stack of books of lines
Because your lyrics were more to be
Into poetry, my poet of other life
What would it've been if we were
Older than when we shared bodies
To send each other poems like
Letters to a soldier from naked lover
Who now could be this kind of lace
In my world where you never were
And these others where we’ve grown
Into paths our hearts followed away
Yet friends in a place of always
Like defining dimensional turning point

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Walking the Dark You Left

walking the dark you left

Walking the Dark You Left

This is but a dead zone
Mimicking energy on the edge
For if it moved, would hovering
Delay everything upon its door
Perhaps this is where every birth
Is so deep into its own germination
It forgot life was beginning
And here is where I wonder
What movement felt like once
As I float like an anchored hollowed tree
Feeling its down stream across
Its back that goes under to breathe
The rot it must become to wash
Over the shores that are missing
Does the world great me like
Technology from twenty-five years ago
As I used it in its deformity
Stuck there on its yesterday
To live twenty-five years from now
As if it were already before
I awoke to my morning prison
Of a bed in a paper closet
Unmoved yet, mimicking that motion
Waves of open unwired communities
Above me connecting everyone
But me in my place that grew
A tree out of rotted roots to
Mobilized home into a sky of branches

Full of imagined limits
As overtalk and uptalk deluded
The dreams that seemed to form
Despite the silence inside this
Mason jar inspection of my wings
Just a twig to survive on
And holes in the lid to warm me
On nights for camping in the snow
With winds showing everywhere
Else to be, than this parked-ness
Of accepting my dimension
And that dimension of you that stayed
Is only a wish of a new home
With jobs kissing my feet
Begging for the doors I sweep
With cats to wander my footprints
Because there is no you here
Like him out there when I
Split all the me's that could be
To touch the man you could have
yet, here is the one that couldn't
And me with thoughts of more
Home and drawings of webs
Of me taller than I slept for
So I roll over to sleep until shells
Peel me from my stagnation
So much dwelling on a maybe man
To be me, only me, with wounds
Gone beyond the scars they lit, ...gone

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